It’s been over a year since I blogged.
Forgive me, for it feels like I have let myself down, and also let you down.
Seems I was undergoing yet another transition. I am about to ender my 49th year, and it has been said that our body changes every 7 years – thus this will be my 7th evolution~ That seems to resonate as a common thread amongst my fellow soul-searchers, scribes, quilters, watercolorists, scrapbookers, card-makers, memory keepers, crafters and avid readers.
Many of you have asked me: What happened to ChickChatfromtheCarriage House? WE LOVED READING IT! Well…………the truth is – my life coach told me to stop writing and to start living. Somehow, when you are an intellect, an avid learner – and live in your head (and not your HEART) ~ you tend to ‘KNOW’ the facts and relish the words, but you don’t ”OWN’ them. I was getting really good at storing up the treasures I had begun to learn in my grey matter, and intercolate the learnings into my own life, but I wasn’t living them. My soul was still crying out for ‘more’ and I was sharing the words readily with all of you but still not living (loving) ‘ME!’
Hard lessons to learn in life.
Many of us have children who have gone off to college and started the next phase of their lives. Some of us have embarked on new careers, and as for me I headed back to pharmaceutical sales and thus have had to put aside my inspirations and aspirations to start over, yet again. I miss my Viktorias Kreations and Kalligraphy business and my Creative Memories journey has also stalled. I love working from the Carriage House in my own cottage industry, using my hands and creativity to honor the gifts that God has given me. I needed to work full-time to ease the burden of funding Kelsea’s Northeastern University adventure. Starting over is ok. Change is good. To be stagnant in one’s life removes the possibilities.
So, that brings me to ‘why’ I decided to start writing today, the Sunday before New Years Eve~ I love the New Year. It’s a time to recollect and cherish all that we have – a time to dream about what we’d like to become, where we’d like to go and make new goals. It’s a time to shed the ‘shoulds’ and try to realize what we gain when we lose the misconceptions, the self-loathing (for whatever it is that we loathe about our beautiful selves)
Since I last wrote, I have completed my G.U.T.S course with Reggies Coaching Academy and created a future self name: SpiritedDragonFly11. She is the BEST version of ‘me’ and well, the next chapters of my life will be living as ‘she’ lives. To my utmost best. (More about her in future blogs)
I have taken to Pinterest and must say it can be addicting. Just like Facebook, and Twitter and e-mails and text messaging and all the other ways our world communicates now, it is important to me to hold on to the words. The words matter. Not just the content but the words themselves, I long to write with my calligraphy nibs, to dip the pen into the antique ink well that was gifted to me from MaryKay Condon of Nantucket Hydrangea Farm. (We found it in the Nantucket Thrift Shop and it’s ancient) I want to feel the quill scratch the paper, watch the ink run through and smudge, to pen the words that will be left behind. All of this technology makes me worry. What ‘will’ remain?. Will the children of tomorrow have the tangible opportunity to pick up a book- an old, yellowed, worn-out, page turner that was adored by someone else? Will they have that feeling you get when you know that by someone elses loving hands held the pages being read? I don’t know about you, but there is something about how an ‘old’ book smells, wondering where it’s travelled, whose lap did it sit in, and just the legacy it provides.
I don’t get that feeling from my NOOK, nor do I love my laptop. I love writing letters – the old fashioned way. I love snail mail. I love cards and thank-you notes and actual invitations.
What do you feel? Where do you like to seek your ‘words’ – tell me….